Boot Camp
Yesterday I dropped Gentry off at Hill Air Force Base, that is where jj’s dad works and he then took him up to Logan to stay with jj’s parent for week. It made me sad and I cried on the way home.
I have left him before and it did not bother me, but this time, I cried. The first time I was stuck in my hormonal, just had quit breastfeeding stupor. I could not have been more happy to get away from him, after having suckled him for a year.
This time, my hormones have mellowed, my hair has grown back and he has enlightened my life. I finally feel the amazing feeling of love that people talk about with their children. I have yearned for that so much. Not because he has changed so much, although he has, but because I have. The insanity has left my blood stream and I am feeling whole again. I hope that I can feel like this from now on.