Vexation
people at jj’s company drink. It does not really bother me. I was talking to my mom about it a little while ago and she said that it was a vexation to my spirit. I have figured out what it a vexation to my spirit and it is not drinking.
There are things about the mormon church that are a vexation to my spirit. One of the ladies that I worked with in Las Vegas is Catholic and her husband is LDS. When he got home from his mission, they got pregnant and than got married. He was disfellowshipped from the church. At a time when they really needed help they kicked them out of the church. That does not seem right to me. I don’t think that is what Christ would have done. There are examples in the scriptures of Christ telling people that he that is sinless should throw the first stone. He could have, and he did not. He forgave everyone and loved them. He did not kick them out of the church or turn them away. I do not understand. And it is a vexation to my spirit.
There was another guy that would go out and get drunk at night and have fun and play. I would sit and watch. On the way home, he rode on the same aisle as us. He got out his Bible and read it. I think that he is probably better off than I am. He is openly religious and a good person, and he drinks.
It is a vexation to my spirit that I try to do everything right and yet I feel like I am slime. I will never be perfect and that is what the atonement is for anyway. And if all the self-righteous, stiff mormons are going to heaven that is not where I want to be. It does not sound that fun to be quiet all the time and try to convert everyone to mormonism. I do not think that is what is going on here. And I don’t think this is the only true church. I do believe that we have the keys of authority handed down to us, but I don’t think that we are the only ones with the truth. There are millions of good people in the world and there is no way that they are all going to hell because they gambled and drank and had fun.