Sunday Summary
So the thing is that the blog turned one yesterday and I don’t really have anything to say about it. In fact, I am having a hard time rubbing word together to form sentences.
Today in church a couple of old people sat behind us. It was the primary program and so everyone invited every living relative, and perhaps some dead, that they could think of. I don’t know who these people that were sitting behind us are, but I could hear everything that they said. I don’t know why this bothered me, I don’t think that they said anything terribly mean or anything. It must have been that everytime they said something I wanted to turn around and explain things to them. This is OUR ward, this is how WE work, STOP with the live commentary.
The program was really cute though. I must admit that I don’t love going to Sunday School. I usually have to go to the library before it starts and then once I get in I start counting down minutes and letting jj know how many more there are. 27 more minutes. I mean now 27 more minutes. 23 more minutes. You get the idea. So lately I have been going to primary because I like to hear them sing. There are some songs that they sing that they get so excited about. They practically scream the entire chorus and I love it. It is like a chorus of mickey mouse impersonators screaming at full blast. I don’t know and don’t care if it is blasphomous. I love that they love to sing so loudly. During the program they kept is pretty toned down.
During young womens we talked about not letting other people bring us down and understanding our own worth. If there was one thing that I could teach these girls to understand is that they really are daughters of God and that means they are part god and have the potential to become gods themselves. And to go along with that, if people are treating them as less than that, they don’t need those people in their lives. I think understanding what and who you are can give us the strength to reach the divine potential you have. I wish that we all knew that. It makes me sad to see people not reaching and striving for it. I don’t even really know what we as people are capable of, but to see people completely settle for mediocure or even less than that, it is sad. I wish that people, in a non-stuck up, help everyone up, kind of way, could reach their amazing potential. I want you to do it and I want me to do it also.
I have also known for quite a while that I get shy around groups of people and will have thoughts like, “I should do this,” or “I should do that.” But I am often so scared to embarrass myself that I won’t do things. This is part of my anxiety. I am going to stop doing it. It is going to be so completely uncomfortable and unnerving, I hope I can keep the shaking to a minimum. But I am going to start talking to people I don’t know. I am going to try to be friendly to everyone. I really hope that I can do this.