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The most exciting thing of late is that jj has gotten his thumb posted in someone else’s blog. He is so proud of his Wii scouting abilities, he is sure he is getting one of these when they are released. We will see.
As for me, I am feeling incredibly boring or bored rather. I have tons or projects that I am working on and need to finish, but I have no will power to work to speak of. I don’t know what my problem is. I wish that I could sleep all day, but I do not have time for such obvious waste of time. However, watching Martha Stewart, that would not count as a waste of time, right?
I am so tired of playing with blocks and coloring. But that is pretty much what Gentry wants to do all the time and eat m&m’s. But who can blame him for that, it could be rated up there with one of my top things to do. I am just bored. I need to get out more or something. I need to find my purpose. Sorry if this is a downer for those of you that are thinking about becoming full time mothers. It really starts to wear on you.
I have been wondering lately, how many women could have changed the world if they would have or could have pursued something other than motherhood. And besides that what about all the people in 3rd world countries that are stuck in their situation. They could be geniuses and could have changed the world if they would have been born to someone else, or gotten their hands on some money or been born in a different country.
What is this oppression? What am I supposed to be doing that I am not. What is my big idea that could change not only my life, but those around me. I want to be more than I am.
October 27th, 2006 at 9:08 am
So, I’ve been thinking about this post for a week and have finally figured out (sort of) the comment I wanted to make.
First, I think you are super cool and very interesting. You have the artistic talent and creativity that I wish i could even pay for and the veracity to cook, great meals for your family…something I will never do.
Second, the women changing the world thing is interesting and I agree. But, i think that we do have the power to change the world, even a little bit at a time. Everything you do every single day has an impact on society whether it’s the products you buy, the shows you watch, or how you teach Gentry about the world. You are changing the world, the problem is, it might not feel like it right now.
Third, I think that we all deal with the opression/depression/why can’t I do anything good issues when we look at ourselves and our tiny little bubbles that we live in. I want to adopt babies from Africa and build orphanages and help fight AIDS, start a non-profit agency that saves the world one hut at a time, but I don’t know how to start, or have the energy and passion to do those things right now. I hope that one day I do. Until then, I’ll keep giving money to the Red Cross, bake cookies for people when I think they are having a bad day, try to be friendly, and do my best to step outside of myself. I’m no good at it, but sometimes I try. And, when I do it, life feels good. I just need to do it more often.
Do you want some cookies?
October 27th, 2006 at 12:03 pm
Thanks Annie.