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Four jobs I’ve had

1. Cowgirl. In Bryce Canyon. Does that count as a job, I’d say more like child labor. Perhaps I will write about that in another blog sometime. I did it for three summers. Three of the worst summers of my life. Anyway, dressed as a cowgirl and entertained people from other countries who wanted a real western feeling time. Because that is how we in the west spend our time.
2. Human Resource Manager for the computer labs at Utah State. That is where I met jj.
3. Thanks you for calling Priceline.com. My name is Makayla, can I get your ticket identification number?
4. Foot Doctor Financial Filer. Fungus and ulcers. Things I never wanted to know people actually had.

Four movies I can watch over and over

I really find it impossible to watch any movie lately. I usually takes about four days to watch one. But in the days when I watched movies, these were them:

1. Dirty Dancing
2. That thing you do!
3. Little Women
4. Beaches

Four places I have lived

1. West Jordan, Utah for about 10 years as a child
2. Logan, Utah going to college for 6 years while going to college. I love it there and would move back in a heart beat.
3. Herriman, Utah went to high school for 3 years there. I was there for such a short time that my mom’s neighbors didn’t even know that I was her child and wondered who was visiting on the weekends.
4. jj’s parents basement and my old bedroom. While I was pregnant and we were building a house.

Four TV shows I love

1. “The Apprentice”
2. “The Office”
3. “Lost”
4. “Arrested Development”

Four places I’ve vacationed

1. San Diego, California
2. Moab, Utah
3. Tiajuana, Mexico (gross)
4. Las Vegas, Nevada

Four of my favorite dishes

1. Sushi
2. Polasami (corned beef, onion, coconut milk, spinach) SO GOOD!
3. Salmon Tacos
4. Jamaican Jerk Pork Salad

Four sites I visit daily

1. dooce.com
2. toothpastefordinner.com
3. allrecipes.com
4. oprah.com

Four places I would rather be right now

1. Warm and cuddly with jj
2. Running
3. San Diego
4. Snowboarding. I am not good. So I would like to be snowboarding well.

Three people I am tagging

1. Annie
2. Lindsey
3. Trisha ( I don’t know your blog)
4. I don’t know anyone else that has a blog.

The end and amen.

Knowing that new people are reading this kind of makes me nervous. In real life I hold back and don’t tell everyone my story. Here I let it all fly. Here I write about the real me. In everyday life I paint on my happy face and pretend that I am perfect. Really, there is quite a bit going on underneath that I don’t talk about, except to jj. This is theraputic in a non-expensive, exabitionist kind of way.

This is my truth, it may not be your truth. But to me this is real and how I see and feel about things. So there is the disclaimer.

So do not be offended, this is not meant to offend. Besides, you are a fool if you are offended by those who did not mean to offend you and and an even bigger fool if you are offended by those who did mean to.

Also, I am not looking for pity. What I am needing and wanting is self-sufficient love and acceptance of myself. That is something that others cannot help me with. It is a slow process, and I think I am making progress.